Dear Readers,
I come to you from covid-19 isolation room 515 in the USC hotel. I regret to inform you that my two years of safety from the virus has come to an end.
This isolation has brought a period of great reflection. I am currently on day 3 in this hotel room and have managed to stay relatively sane. In a way, I feel at peace and am proud of myself. It takes strength to just be okay being truly alone with yourself.
Sure, I am not really alone as I am connected via all the devices. I've got TV shows and books and homework and FaceTime to distract myself from the quiet. A truly off the grid experience would be a much bigger test of my oneness with self.
However, I have taken a lot of time to journal and do yoga and rest without all the distractions. I feel like I can think clearly and my body needs the rest. Who would have known? Covid really does knock you out!
Ultimately, there is no big realization or understanding of the world. However, through my reading and reflection, I feel a sense of gratitude. Grateful for the life I have lived and that which I will continue to live once I am out of this box. It's a burst of inspiration in a way - to want to live bolder and brighter after all this. To not take so much for granted, to doubt myself, or to be negative. Will I continue to do all of these things? Of course. I'm no angel. But for as long as I can, I will try to tap into this energy of inspiration and gratitude.
Being alone makes you want to reach out more to the people that matter in my life. I have had great calls with people that I do not make enough time for, and think about what I value in a friend. Looking out onto campus gives me an outsider view to take it all in. Usually I am just one of those small bodies wandering on campus and going through the motions. Seeing it all from what I cannot access gives me a new perspective on intentionality. Maybe I need to spend more time alone to center myself and find my intention for each day and how I want to live life.
Isolation → Intention
Am I losing my mind in here? Possibly. Or am I finding it?... (ooh that's deep)
Cordially,
Lindsey
x fight on
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